Tired

"The pills and razor blade rest at my side
This is not the end but the beginning
I have had my low points
I have taken a few pills in the past
Only to obliterate the world from my mind
A few moments of peace
Before everything comes crashing down
Disjointed memories of an ambulance and a hospital
Drifting in and out of consciousness (...)
I have taken all that this world can throw at me
The pills and razor blade still rest at my side
But they are not going to see any action tonight
It is a night of silent contemplation
I put everything back in their proper place (...)
The pills and razor blade will always be there
My silent friends who lead me into darkness
I am ready to stare into the light
At least for one more day."